I am a bit over the photo purge posts as of late. Or maybe I just haven’t had a heart to heart with you lately. Ok, ever. I don’t do gush as anyone who’s spent any time with me can tell you. I have cynicism written all over my face. But alas, I was feeling wordy and having not taken photos of anything of interest as of late I figure we can just chat tonight.
I have been feeling chaotic and stagnant. Weird feeling combo right? It’s just a weird place in life to be.
It’s been 13+ months since Juniper’s vaginal exit, our 5 year wedding anniversary is next weekend, which includes 4 days away from the before mentioned child to have grown up time (read bow chika wow wow) at Riot Fest, winter is coming early and I can feel it in my ageing bones, and on the topic of ageing, I have a birthday coming up that is pushing me closer to 30. A girls trip to Minnesota is happening in October and I hate how everything looks on me…
The stagnant feelings come with the always lingering itch to move. Not just into a new place, but a new state. We have moved 7-8 times in the last 9 years. And not once did I not look forward to the change. I absolutely love where we live and I think it would be a great place to raise a kiddo. However the circumstances that brought us to the area weren’t ideal and when Matt graduates, he will need a bit more urban option for job opportunities in the world of finance and economics. Have I mentioned we are polar opposites before? So while I’d create art all day, he’d watch stock tickers…
Here I have also found that outside of work, I haven’t clicked with many people. I adore the few friends we spend time with, but I crave the idea of a group of people with similar ideas, thinking, priorities and sense of fun. People I want to surround my family with, folks who love quality drinks and cooking and don’t take life serious when they don’t need to.
All that spewed and here is where I stand. I am really looking forward to a change and a move. I am really excited about our 4 days down in Denver where we can eat all of our favorite foods and wake up when we want, go to sleep when we want, responsibly jump in Uber rides and irresponsibly have a reason to. Stay at the Curtis and photo document it all. Laugh daily with our crazy girl and let’s be honest, we are laughing at her, not with her 97% of the time. She is learning and changing every day. That’s one of those things you just don’t grasp until it’s real life. I am excited to get closer to 30, because in my mind, when 30 hit’s life is more grounded. And I can’t wait for the October Wedding in MN, but I’ll just be wearing sweats!
Until then, let me leave you with this gem from 2006 at my parents home. I found it while reminiscing on Myspace the other day. Side note, I only know Matt because he was a myspace stalker. Fitting eh?